OSHO ON HOBBIES AND LIFE PASSION Question – Beloved Master, What is your Hobby?
Osho – Anando, I have none. I don’t need any. A hobby is needed to keep you occupied. When you are tired of your ordinary occupation — and naturally one gets tired of earning bread and butter — when you are tired of your ordinary occupation there are only two alternatives. Either be unoccupied…which creates great fear in you, because to be unoccupied means to be with oneself, to be utterly alone with oneself. It is to face one’s own abysmal depth — it frightens, it scares. It means to face one’s life and one’s death, it means to face one’s own interiority — which is infinite, so vast you cannot comprehend it. And the very vastness frightens. A great trembling arises in you.
The one alternative is: meditate when you are unoccupied with your ordinary business. The other alternative is: get occupied again in some foolish activity, and call it a hobby.
A few people collect postage stamps — now, see the stupidity of it — and they call it a hobby. And all hobbies are like that. These are ways and means to keep escaping from yourself.
I’ll admit, Osho screws with my head. And I know he means to do this. I have collected so many hobbies in the past that you could call me a hobby hoarder. Most have been superficial, but have presently dwindled to gardening and yoga. Or to be more precise, I like to present to the world that my hobbies are gardening and yoga. Most of the time I feel like a complete fake. Doing less of what than I present, while imagining in my head how much I will do these some day (it’s always tomorrow) and how fabulous my life will be.
I feel as if I’ve been in a personal crisis for the last three years or so. These years have been spent in considerable personal reflection and self discovery. I have discovered that I am a Myers-Briggs INFP, and an Enneagram Type 4. I find it extremely easy to fantasize in my head about how many yoga classes I am going to attend and how fabulous my garden is going to be in the spring, but my actions rarely live up to it. Frankly, I find it easier to go home after work and disconnect with TV, cigarettes, food and more often lately, an alcoholic drink.
This is where I am at… my greatest fear is to look foolish in public, and I know that if I shared my current habits with folks I know, I would be exactly that. I know better, but I always look for a saviour – typical Type 4 behavior, as are addictions to cigarettes, food and alcohol. As I look back, this has always been the case… It was boys in high school, food in college, hobbies in my 20′s, and now a spiritual quest in my 30′s. Osho also stated in his commentary on the Yoga Sutras that you basically have to lose all hope and be ready to leave this world because there is nothing else to live for in order to truly give yourself over to meditation and the spiritual path. While I don’t think I am that desperate, I can see it on the horizon if I continue on this path of self-destruction. I take comfort in the fact that a great spirit made me and therefore everything about me is okay. I also know that I will emerge from this in a new light, and welcome you to join me on this journey. Perhaps you are on your own journey. Let’s travel together.